Liam drew this portrait of me. Never one to miss the details, he even drew my necklace with his and Noah's footprints.

May 13, 2018

Today, Liam’s grade held a Mother’s Day Tea in their classroom. Music played as we walked in. The children stood at their desks holding a tissue paper bouquet of flowers.  They recited poems, sang and served us a strawberry dessert and tea. Liam was quite the gentleman as he pulled out my chair to be seated. I could see in his eyes how excited he was to participate in this. My heart felt so full and tears brimmed my eyes. Tears that maybe the average mom did not feel.

I thought about how much I love Liam and how proud I am of him. I am so grateful to be his mother. I also thought about how would I do Mother’s Day Tea if Noah were here? Would he be in the other classroom? The logistics of having twins throughout each stage of Liam’s life has never escaped me. I doubt that it ever will.

I work hard at always being fully present for these moments; to never take for granted small moments such as these. What a tragedy it would be if I did not take the time to look him in the eyes as he spoke to me and not engage in conversation. It’s easy to have the mind wander when children chatter on. I thought about how fortunate I am to have this moment with my child. I would do anything to have Noah be alongside of us. Although I do not have pictures or a video of this day, I doubt that I will forget it. I rather have my son see my face without the phone in front of it. He is everything to me, and I want him to see that.